First of all I will admit this is like 10% jealousy, but that’s it. Also sorry for my language, I don’t usually swear unless it’s needed and in this I think it is needed a bit. But I am sosososososo tired of girls (boys do this too) saying that it’s hard to come by a guy who will do cute things for you and treat you right. Like I said, theres guys that say this about girls too and so on. But the thing is I know so many awesome guys and girls that are currently single that would treat their counterpart with so much cute shit its unbearable. Me being one of those guys. I love doing cute stuff. But unfortunately it comes down to the whole “I want a perfect human being that has flawless looks and does cute shit.” This frustrates the hell out of me. Yea I get that not everyone is attracted to everyone else, but I honestly think if people opened their eyes a bit more and didn’t look at how much someone weighs or what kind of scars someone has and so on, I honestly do think they will find someone that will treat them great. I see a lot of posts about how girls think guys looks are. For example I saw one earlier that says Guy: Why do girls always think they are fat? Guy: Ew fat chicks. You don’t realize how much this goes both ways. It isn’t just guys that do this, heck I think it’s more girls that do it. Idk if it is that I just have met some super shallow chicks, but I have been told not once, not twice, not even three times, but numerous times “I wish I could find a guy like you”. Which is the biggest slap to the face. It’s like “Uhm, I am like me the last time I checked”. But basically what that is saying is “I wish I could find a guy like you, but not the way you look”. Like I said this is partially jealously, but it is also life experience. And for you to say “Well I am just complaining, grow balls and suck it up”. I honestly wish you were in my seat sometimes. It’s not like I have never asked a girl out. It’s not like I am this super anti-social introvert. I know the typical “well you will find a great girl one day”. And I believe that, but I just get so downed when people are just shallow. And yes, it is shallow.
Haven’t posted a ramble/rant in a while haha. Sooo I am so close to finishing the semester woo. I am done with 2 classes, and two more to go. The hard classes are out of the way. So relieved. Gah, illustration 2 drag me through a couple layers of hell, I swear. But it’s over. I am drinking lots of coffee today. Well I went to bed around 2am this morning and my dog decided he wanted to wake me up around 5am. Silly dog. So yea, coffee is running as my blood right now. Woo future kidney stones.
Yea so I have picked up a couple games recently. I play minecraft as usual, but I picked up warlock, which is like the best thing ever. It’s like civilization franchise but with dragons and wizards and such. It freaking blows my mind and makes me happy. It brings back fond memories of my childhood playing these “Godmode” games. It’s just awesome. Also, I pre-ordered torchlight 2 because I am a hipster when it comes to diablo. But honestly, I love the torchlight series so much more.
I actually use to have torchlight the original, but I lost it when my old computer crashed. So recently I have been playing the original torchlight, and I forgot how much I loved that game. It’s just freaking amazing. Haha, yea.
And another random note, I have basically lost my interest in music recently. I have been trying to get into listening to all genres, but it just doesn’t do it for me anymore. I may be broken T_T. So yea, that’s all my rambling for now :P. I give you kudos if you actually read this. I will give you a virtual hug.
Arg. I cannot stand people who are like 2 years older me, thinking because they are older they have a larger grasp on life. You are talking to a man who has cooked for himself for nearly 8 years. A man who has been to more funerals than you will in your lifetime. A man who has held jobs while you were playing around with your buddies in middleschool or early highschool. Just because you were born a couple years prior to me, doesn’t mean you have gone through more life than I have. Aawekjrakwerjkwar.
And this person buys 3 of the things I post. The shipping was 3$ For each. They send me not one, but three messages saying “Can you make the shipping cheaper since I bought 3 things”. I explained to them that shipping isn’t cheap. And these aren’t small things. A day and a half goes by and no answer and they never paid. I send a short messages saying “Hey are you going to pay or not?” They write this huge reply saying how they were going to buy everything, but since I was in a rush to get my money and was immature, that they would just pay and look elsewhere for stuff. >___>. Its simply ridiculous. I see it like this. You buy something, you know what you are paying for it, and yet you want to argue it cheaper? Its ebay, they could of bidded for it, and probably got it cheaper, yet they bought it. Sigh, people are crazy.
So this is going to be my random. Expect to be taken everywhere with this. Haha. So college, Its been good. I mean, I feel like I am gaining gray hairs, but it could be worst. I love design in layout class. It pushes my designs further then I ever thought. I love just doing designs, and the professor is just amazing. My animation fun is pretty fun, its a bit too tedious for my liking, but its pretty good. My ceramics class is really fun, but my professor assigns a new project every week and its just sooooo much to handle. I love making pots and glazing them. And finally…… Color Theory. I love the people in this class, thats the only thing I like. Everything else just sucks about this class. Its just a horrible class. I will be looking for the end of the semester to end.
On another note, and a rather more sad note. My sisters fiance’s father passed away today. Its really sad. I only met him once. Hes gone to be with the lord. It might sound horrible, but its a blessing in disguise. He had a brain tumor and a good handful of other serious medical problems. Now he is pain free. If whoever reads this will pray for my sisters fiance’s family, it would be great.
Soooo, among all of this college work, I have been doing some “fun” things on the side. I really wish I had a better computer so I could record some gameplay and such, but I do what I can do for now. I have been playing a game called R.O.S.E Online. Its a MMORPG. Its unlike any other game I have played. Its cartoonish and just fun :3. I also have been doodling a lot. I am, though lacking in my tshirt creating, I might get back into that in a couple weeks. But really its mainly playing games on free time. I will post a picture later of my character in R.O.S.E :D.
I think that is it for my rambling haha. I am selling a bunch of my stuff. Tv series, books, and even my 0g plug collection. I am saving up for a new computer. :D. Okay guys, hope everything is going well.
Someone asked me about my brochure for my class, and a couple other people saw it. The person I asked said it was nice. But everyone else was like “That sucks, That’s stupid, etc”. I don’t mind negative comments, as long as it gives me something to build off. If something is wrong, just tell me what it is. Rather that just throwing it in the trash. Sigh, I swear, just because I don’t put floating objects or using Comic Sans, doesn’t mean its crap. People just get brain washed into what is “Good” Design. And when someone tries to push design, they label it as crap, because its different. Sorry for this ramble/rant.
I am a graphic designer as many of you know. I know not everyone is familiar with design. Graphic Design these days are down the toilet. People can put a couple pieces of things unskillfully together, that is a horrible design, but people praise them because they think it looks “pretty”. It just grinds my gears. I put together some professional logos and such and people say “Well wheres the flash and bang”. Sigh. I feel like Good Design is being smothered with Bad :(. Makes me sad.
So recently for some odd reason, I have felt like I have been seeing my ex everywhere. I am well over her, but its just odd. I kind of get this bleh feeling. Like I miss what we were, but I don’t miss her. Anywho, I looked up her profile on facebook for kicks. She kind of looks terrible. She has loads of makeup on and looks rather trashy. I will admit, it did make me giggle at first. But then I felt bad. I felt like her life went downhill after she broke up with me. Idk. I know shes probably out there having “fun” drinking the night away, doing God knows what with God knows who. But bleh. Kind of depressing.
Time to ramble. Couple things. First off, I kind of fell off my diet and exercise. I am going to try to go back today to it. I don’t think I gained the weight back per say. But I am still trying to loose it.
So this is going to be a long rant/ramble. I have a “friend”. Its a lady friend, but shes like my younger sister. Its one of those kinds of friends that wants to be friends on their terms, not yours. She texts me one word answers and such. She only tells me she misses me when she sees me. I am always around for her. I am always here. And yet it takes me to go see her, in order for her to tell me she misses me. I put a facebook status a little while back. “I am more than just a name in your contact list”. I have had friends like her a while ago. I know how it works. When she wants to talk about this particular subject of feels this way, she pulls up my name, like I am a specialist. That’s not how friendship works in my eyes. I treat my friends all the same. I text them often just to see how they are and where they are in life. But the usual excuse is “I have too many friends”. Friends are like pets. If you are going to have 100 pets, you have to manage time with those pets in order for them to want to be around you. I guess I wasn’t the million friend kind of person. I believe in quality not quantity. I mean I have plenty of acquaintances. But a friend means a lot more to me than the usual person. If you are my friend, you are there for me and I am there for you. Its a relationship, not a chore. I don’t know. It hurts my feelings when someone doesn’t talk to you for weeks, then says they misses you. I have been here the whole time lady.
Anywho, this weekend I am going to Purple Door :]. I am so excited, going with my best friend and his family. Chillen in PA, listening to hardcore music. Yep, going to love it :]. Ah I can’t wait.
So me and my friend are debating on starting a nonprofit shirt company. We are thinking of making t shirts then selling them for a little more than the cost to make them, and give the money we make to local charity’s. Or something along those lines. We feel like we have a calling to do so.
Well I think this is it for my rant and ramble. Hope everyone is well! Take care :].
When I see people that get excited because x amount of people are following them or they have x amount of posts and such. I guess to other people that’s an achievement. Kind of thought this site was a blog site, not a new myspace. “Yesh 5k Friends!”. Lol sorry. Just a little rant. ^_^
Haha, not going to rant to much today. Or at least I am going to try not to. Haha. I woke up early and went to the cancer center with my mom for her chemo. My mother the whole time she was going through chemo, always told me she didn’t want me to come and experience it. So in my mind, it was something super unpleasant. But I still offered to sit with her. Today my dad, who usually went with her, was really sick. So I went. We literally just sat there and she had stuff going in her port. Its almost laughable. Something my mom blew way out, was nearly nothing. Anywho, it was good. I got some free cookies out of it :]. Anyways, time to really rant :]. So I asked a bunch of my friends a couple days ago if they could help out opening my pool. Its going to take a lot of help. My one friend says, “Sorry, I am going to go to OC to see my friend.” I was like, okay have fun. Today I was told she is going down for her birthday. It really urks me that she would lie to me over something little and dumb. If she told me she was going to go for her birthday, then I would say, have a nice time. Or even if she said simply, no. I would of said okay. But I get a lie? Wow. So dumb. I can’t stand how immature some people can be. But hey, thats life huh. I will end this here, lol.I can rant forever.